Mexican Cherry

Cherry entered college

In the begining everything was fine, met friends and within there was a special girl that was very alike in terms of working, fact that made projects super easy at the time and with the best grade always. Of course we partnered  for everything, it was the best choice, wasting less time working and getting ultimate results, yup! It was good. 

What I'm about to say might sound like bragging but as someone has told me:

You don't have to apologize for success, not when you have fought for it and worked you ass off to get what you have~ 

- I've always been an excellence student, yes, always, my parents raised me with that purpose in mind actually so, rivals tend to come on the way in order to take your first place and smile above you, now to add a bit more, I am very competitive in all matters, and want to win all the time (who doesn't?) and this girl presented to me as the same. She is very very competitive and will literally do anything to get what she wants. Either way our grades were always really the same, so we were practically the perfect TEAM. 

Time passed and...turns out Cherry fell in love, and love has a cost sometimes... it all went perfect but on the journey, there were some challenges for da relationship to grow and remain as beautiful as it is at the moment (Ha! spoiler!). Let me tell you, Cherry is very emotional, her feelings are intense most of the time and there is no way to stop her from crying when she really is hurt. I have mentioned in TRUST ISSUES: PART I  a bit of the story or some effects of it, at least the ugly side.  

So, considering a lingering sadness

...and growing ache in roots of jealousy (obviously potentialized by real facts and events) this specific friend became a shoulder to cry on, since she was pretty much the one I had to spend three quarters of my day with -we had all our classes together- and she really listened.

 At this moment of tranquility now I realize that many of her consolation speeches were mostly adding to the pain, they were not improving in any way, but rather depressing and making me doubt even more of what was going on. 

This became eviden after my storm was over and happiness took over, since Cherry told her about all of the cute and fun stuff that happened regarding the painful situation and her reaction was pretty much cold stone and she instantly began to remind me all the bad aspects that his particular person has, how I didn't got what I wanted specifically, how this could lead to failure, how the other girl would never go away and well... reminding me all of the bad and no, no, it was not in a sense of hey girl be careful, I don't want him to hurt you again, no, it was said with such a tone that made me feel weird, even uncomfortable. 

Throughout our college journey competition was evident as I said, but pretty normal actually, in my head love and growing up internally was a priority, because I consider these experiences one of a kind, the ones that help you learn more about yourself and guide your path towards a true destination, along maturity and tranquility in the overall life scenario. After my second semester breakdown due obtaining a B that would bring my GPA down by a tiny important bit - that in the end didn't matter at all- I realized there was more to worry about and the grading process is not fair at all for anyone! You can get an A with plenty methods that do not require learning for real, but let's say that while I had fun and relaxed a bit, she struggled a bit more with the love part. 

My friend had a tough experience

 That could all be solved by propper communication but  at the moment we both suffered, but in her case studies were number one priority, above anything else and it was obvious she loved to beat everyone in the class, not in the best way we must add... 

To make it shorter, this friend made it obvious that it was all good and magic when I was beneath her, in grades, crying over heartbreak, getting fatter even! but aslong as she had it "better" our so called friendship that well was mostly just partnership, was gonna remain the same. When my life turned around and got finally lovely, she started to leave and to be honest it may be one of the best things that happened during my college days. 

I cried over this, yes I did, because no matter what we had, it was a huge part of my life aswell and suddenly breaking all contact was not really the way I expected things to go, and as a villain, which makes it worse, when literally all I did was study, go to work and spend time with my loved man. It came as a shock but all we lived, it became clear to me that she wasn't really a nice energy to keep around, she was the opposite of it, always expecting me to be down or at least not above her. Many would say that it was not the case and I made it up, that is how social life works, everyone makes up things about events that aren't even part of their life, creating unnecessary rumours and unreal details. 

After she left me

...cutting all contact we ever had, my struggle to survive without a partner to share work or free time in between classes was hard, but after realizing how bad our energies were together, how the interaction added no good to self development and greatness, then my soul was finally in peace, there was no pain, no tears, no late night projects, no drama, and most of all, there was no one to bring me down anymore, no one inserting doubt in my life. 

Currently I spend my days working, lazying around and meeting friends, spending also a ridiculous amount of time dedicated to my love. In general it is all about getting better, enjoying life and remember these situations happen, we change, we are dynamic creatures that are in constant change, so I'm not surprised by that and can only learn with the experience, remembering all the good times we had together and expecting she feels the same way, living life to its fullest, with no regret or bad energy involved, I wish her all the happiness~  

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First time I actually looked at my closet with the intention of owning what works and makes me happy, I realized half of it was mainly stuff that for me has no use anymore. I told others about my decluttering process and pretty much everyone told me: SELL IT ALL

Amm yeah, by selling every item that came out from the decluttering stage of my closet, you can easily earn a few thousands, but why sell it? Sure, a student like me could use some extra money, but remember, people with nothing at all could use some clothes, something to help them live by & this is why I started looking out for options.

There are plenty shelters in my city, they specialize in a lot really! Choosing was too hard, should I give it to kids? migrants? to the elderly? Before I could actually do anything about it someone knocked on my door. A lady with two children was asking for help, she said everything was useful for her since she was homeless. In Mexico help for the homeless is quite restricted, they have to go through a lot of paper work and most of them don't want or can actually pass the required minimum to obtain government aid. As bad as this sounds there are multiple shelters that work independently but they can be difficult to be found, that is why a lot preffer to stay on the streets and ask for help. 

Now, this lady had come to my house before but i didn't know about it since my mother was the one helping her without telling us, so I though ok, money is worthy for her and the children but these items (clothes mostly) can actually help her and idk maybe she can sell or trade them, they are really useful and I reallly don't have feelings left for them. My mother thought it was a good idea and well the lady accepted the items with a huuuuuge smile which made me realize it was the best choice! 

Now I want to share the love once more and tell you guys that no matter how small, help is always welcomed in any specie, food, clothes, money or even meds  (careful, simple and no prescription ones or talk to a doctor before aiding) everything is helpful to those who have nothing else. 

I will keep donating stuff I declutter and search for other shelters that accept them too! Helping others not only yes, helps others haha but it is also an action that helps yourself by letting go and learning to share, to give away things that have no place in your space and could mean the world to others! 

I encourage you to take at least one item and donate it to the shelter or person of your preference, believe me, we all have at least 10 items that we no longer need ;)    

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This entry might be one that a lot can identify with, since it is about a process we all go through our entire life, yes loves, it is Change. 

When we are little, everyone places expectations for us, how we have to be as adults, our profession, lifestyle, even our sexuality is involved here! Every single aspect of life is ridiculously expected to be perfect, free of errors and always aspiring to become what our ancestors  couldn't. Somehow it shakes our little core, influencing decisions in our path. 

I will ommit the biological change for this text, later we'll be able to discuss such matters in a more detailed way, that and the adversities it has for us when it happens.  Ok to go on, our mind is always processing information, brain is one hardcore worker! To me the struggle that comes with change is the hardship of moving out of comfort, out of my coccoon in which I develop for a period of time, or maybe even the routine that enhances my productivity and happiness also. Could be anything I am happy with and believe me, everytime I get to a good point in life, where I don't even worry and smile everyday the issues arise, having me thinking of the past, mistakes, future and worries overall. 

It stops me from living my happy present 

Even though we are forced to change by growing up and social activities recquired with age, some of us really cry our heart out every stage of life. I remember being so afraid of entering college and damn, I'm graduating this year! It is unbeliavable to me, the actual fact still hasn't processed enough in my mind to accept that in a few months I'll be crossing another stage and will have to adapt to another and scarier one no matter what.


Avoiding reality 

To me, games were just a part of my day that caused fun, they give my brain a rest but also exercise some of the creativity, strategy and motor skills. It is all fun and games until you realize that you spend your day wishing for some time to play, which becomes a whole afternoon and then a daily routine.

Even though I don't judge games or people who play them, I notice that for me, they have become an escape from my changing reality, since I rather play Age of Empires than study or clean my living space. I realized the act of gaming became my comfort zone even though the majority of the time I lose in them, but it is incredible how building a virtual reality is so relaxing, numbs the mind and lets it breathe without worrying about anything real.

Until you wake up in the morning and there are no clean clothes, your bedroom is a mess and you haven't propperly fed yourself in a long time, or fed the brain some juicy information.


Recognition and Acceptation 

I am not doing anything for myself.

Repeat and actually recognize that even though it is lovely to build an entire civilization or watch other people reach their dreams, you have a body & mind of your own that needs nourishment, no one else can do it for you and no game will ever let you manage real life as easy as a ctrl clic will ever do.

It feels like crap, yes! Believe me, we all go through a moment in life that destroys the cloud of numbing we sometimes live in, nobody likes to hear they're failing to themselves. And by failing I mean not taking care or listening to the person you are, no interruptions and no comfort treats of any kind but a raw version of yourself.

Once we accept that we are not really working towards anything to take care of ourselves, then change can happen. This time, change that we can sort of manage and launch without being absorbed by an external change. To me it came represented in the way of decluttering, cleaning, dieting (learning how to eat) and exercising. I'm not perfect and all of these had setbacks, but I recognized my obstacles and got up to emend them. Gotta remember life is one, is today.

So, what next? 

Ok, we have discussed ups and downs, now what are we supposed to do? My honest advice and what I am following at the moment is to be true to yourself, listen to what you need (body & mind), don't give up, changes might be hard but it's happening either way, some of them are unavoidable and the best we can do is outgrow them.

Sometimes I wonder how all every girlboss lives, how they wake up early, plan ahead, workout, study, work, film videos, travel, learn, read, cook...qojdnuweybi!!!!! Everything seems magical if you simply search for bloggers on your social media. Somehow they have found the balance to actually achieve and get stuff done! Plus they're making money too!~ 

While sipping the cup of coffee of the day, a realization came in touch with the altercated mind and actually suggested to perform a 30 day challenge with a heavy schedule that promotes organization and productivity at their best! 

This will be the topic of the month, it will include several posts of the subjects mentioned above and even more, be prepared to explore a month or so of adventures that will force my body and mind to find an equilibrium working harder than ever! I am very happy to start this journey, but for now I declare the productivity month inaugurated and ready to go~~~~yaaaaay!!!  Stay tuned ;) 

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Hello & Welcome to the Mexican Cherry blog!

Today I'll be sharing with you a part of my weighloss journey in which a lot has happened and there's been plenty learning also. This particular post is a "review" of a workout video and the results of it, so let's begin! 

It obviously caugh my attention, I mean it is a very tempting title, you lose belly fat! the stubborn belly fat that wants to stay with us no matter what and a smaller waist that us females tend to like and want to have ourselves; so naturally I decided to start a challenge for myself and do this everyday for a month with no rest! 

While reading through the comments you can find a lot of them saying there will be an update to tell if the workout actually works and how was it, so I commented and at the time I had not planned to write in here about it, but once I got serious with the workout video I wanted to tell a lot more than a few words or a sentence about how it went for me doing this for a month straight. I feel you can get a wider review than just putting up a comment on Youtube (which also helps and I will post it in a minute btw). 

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Hello! if you're new to my blog, take a look around, it might not be much (yet), but it certainly opens the gates to a new journey I "the mexican cherry" am embracing. 

So this is just the background of why I write, now let's move on to the blog issue. 

If you browse the internet and have accounts on tumblr, youtube and instagram, you might have already encountered some people that publish by a lifestyle tag. But if you look overall, it is probable too polished all the time, which is super inspiring to put your S**t together, but also quite discouraging when you're scrolling down on an instagram account of a girl who's content is amazing and shows multiple trips, parts of the world and of course, luxury EVERYWHERE!  

This scenario might be how a lot of people actually live, but I looked around and noticed that most of us really don't live like that. It inspired me to write about life without that, and don't get me wrong, it is not bad in any way, just different! I wanted to read a blog that had the average girl, the normal life and difficulties that everyone goes through. I know most of the bloggers cannot write about personal stuff too much because it might cause trouble or go out of the already stablished blog content and most of all, some actually say it is risky to write like that and about that. 

I decided to show the internet a different side of the lifestyle story, to actually share personal stuff that imply relationships, school, crisis and even sex. To write about literally every single aspect that life has, no matter what and no matter how. My life motto or at least what I follow in my everyday life with my friends is: 

That above is why I share with my friends most of my experiences, because sharing is caring. Yes it is! And the real stuff might be hard to swallow -no pun intended-, this is the reason I want to share with you guys all of it, and also why you're going to find entries that could sound a tad dramatic from time to time. 

Simple! 

- It is currently free to share it all, while I stablish content and explore the world of blogging. 

- To explore Creative writing: Carrie Bradshaw has been an influence to write the creative way, but since I still don't have a column, a blog is the way to express.

- In the blog, I can write about everything I want and how I want without any restraint

And the last but most important reason: A special someone gave me the final push to it, the one who I have to thank the courage to start this path and really if you ever read this, thank you so much! You were right, there is nothing to fear or lose. 

This is my story, the summed up one so it doesn't become a book! And the journey for the Mexican Cherry continues, with plenty more to write and learn...

Hello & Welcome to a cherry post that this time, will tell you how one afternoon ...

As a 13/14 year old girl, life did not had terrible complications, but it started to crumble with the surprise of depression alongside a growing eating dissorder. I was very sad, cried in school, nobody ever worried too much, not enough to actually figure out it was more serious than hormonal changes.

I hated my body, surrounded by a 60cm waist mother, a grandma that bought waist trainers for me when I was only eleven and the usual social pressure comming from already skinny friends, my mental health started deterioring, restricting my food intake, getting into self injury and a bad community of ANA's that were not helpful at all, at least in making progress or recovering.

This summes up a bit from my early teenager years. Rock music calmed me a lot, but most of it would be the one that comes with sad lyrics or dramatic lyrics, yup! a slight dramatic genre of it, sad ballads, sad rock, sad and angry metal, That and even more! So, my daily inspiration was not the best to stay on track with recovery, or actually trying it for real! Indulging in sad melodies everyday was definitely not the way to happy state (at least for my case).

One Saturday afternoon while browsing Youtube videos, watching some performances of my rock bands and exploring everything I could, the section called  "videos being watched right now" caught my attention. It was a pink thumbnail with girls in it, to the date, the reason of why I cliked that video remains unknown, but it led to a significative point in life that would change it all.

Here I present you the first K-pop video that shook my mind 

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The song might not be the greates musical discovery, but it surely had nothing to do with any sadness or feeling that evoked it. It was just fun and not at all tiring, in fact, it made me want to learn their dance and sing along even though the lyrics are in korean and at the time I only understood english. That video led me to explore more, first I searched for more material of the beloved Wondergirls (sadly now disbanded) and I found a range of groups that had a diversity of charms to offer. A lot of people say k-pop groups are all the same, but believe me if you look past prejudice and actually look at them, you will eventually know k-pop has a ton of styles within, not being globed by a certain way. 

Back to my story, this little girl started to follow their activities, browsing through multiple korean sites, videos and lyrics (romanized of course) leading me to grow interest not only in k-pop, but in Korea itself. Due that, I learned how to read their alphabet, to pronounce and sing propperly. 

Culture has always been an interest of mine, I read a lot and investigate about a ton of them online so, Korea became my focus and I learned even more about it through, guess what! Variety Shows! Learning vocabulary and mannerisms became way easier with them on my side and this culture showed me a side of life that can really affect everyone's lives in a sweet positive way.

If you know about Korea, you must know already that self-growth, hard-work, constance and everyday upgrade are vital components of life over there. Having this in mind, even though my eating dissorder wasn't cured magically, it was certainly re-directing itself to a more positive light, having me eat healthier foods like: sweet potatoes, lettuce (kimchi influenced), milk, even meat! I was going through a vegetarian period and cut out meat but watching shows of koreans eating it simply made my mouth water :3  

From this day my discipline totally upgraded, i learned dances (I still know the steps for the song above), korean language, korean culture, history and even geography! Wondergirls became my beloved girlgroup and even though there are hundreds of them now and they disbanded recently, they're always gonna be in my heart. I sincerely think that you can make the best out of any hobby such as dancing k-pop, watching variety shows and more into a really nice activity that also brings something to your own life. 

My depression was not magically healed or gone, but it got way better, this songs helped me get a different perspective, everything was happier, videos made me dance and workout and overall be a happier girl in my everyday life, even now when I'm blue and need a hype I can always trust some k-pop to brighten my day! 

Hello cherries! 

Today I present you the moodboard of the week! Even though it is arriving a bit late than expected, this gathering of beautiful visuals is pretty much the sum up of last week also. Between handling events, meet ups with friends, cooking an average of two hours per day to follow a diet and of course every single project that needs to get done...or started, there's been a topic right on my mind that I notice everyone is working on. 

You guessed it

  PRODUCTIVITY 

If you haven't watched this serie please do, it is awesome and every chapter had me truly inspired, since it is  based on the book by Sophia Amoruso and her real life events creating a successful business. The story is so relatable and can be enjoyed easily, btw the soundtrack is bomb!  

• Coffee Shops 

• Flowers 

No more! Our garden of thoughts and ideas is meant to be taken care of, so let's dive in to nourishing our minds and stop procrastinating or making less of what we think ;)  

• LOVE 

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Have you ever felt like you connect with the story of a character in TV? Most of the time it is just fantasy, but others the script hits you on the gut and shocks your system making you wonder how is that so like my real life???? 

This has happened to me with multiple movies, series and books even, but there is a show like no other, oh yes! Sex and the city (SATC)~  One of the most popular series ever made and girl, it is one of the most relatable ones also! If you haven't seen it, believe me, it is life changing. 

I was exploring the instagram random posts to vary my feed and found a ton of accounts that have these stills of the show with the captions on it, quotes and else. 20 minutes later I was still going through this content, one caption got my eye and I kept scrolling, but now with warmth that filled my entire being. What was it? 

For the ones that have yet to watch SATC, I won't spoil the whole story, but in Season 4, episode 8, this happens: 

To be short, her boyfriend at the moment "Aidan", helps her with her laptop since it failed and she lost her entire work. He then buys a new computer and tries to help her with everything he can.. 

More happens in the episode but to be honest the part that inspired this post is only that fraction of love that Aidan shows to Carrie and how it made me remember how my love life has been in the  very same situation! 

I am not that good when it comes to technology, digital stuff in general and even though I'm passionate to learn and discover, sometimes I wander through hours of desparin trying to install something. For a few years I have been lucky enough to have a digital wizard all for myself (well, helping me with it) and it seems that this image of them just like that, took me back to every moment my man has ever helped me with stuff like that. There is this feeling of gratitude and love that just fills me up and makes me smile so wide everyone wonders wth is going on with me. 

Some may call me intense for expressing my feelings a lot, but goddamn, as I always say: If I love, I love with my all and no restraint at all ~

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Love is not meant to be tied or censored, to me, expressing it is the most healthy thing you can ever do and it also assures the other part of the relationship of how you feel about them. I cannot be more thankful to the man always helping and supporting me in every way. He is way more than this scene of Aidan, even more than Mr. Big himself and if you know what I'm talking about, you must know how extreme this case is!  Yes, I've been there, even though independence runs through my veins, I can sometimes feel lost and a hand of support is always good and what better than from your favorite human ever? 

If you are lucky to have a special someone in your life, do not take it for granted, it is a miracle your energy matches another one and if love sprouts from that special connection, you've hit the JACKPOT!

Personally I am living in Vegas if that's the case, and don't get me wrong, not everything is perfect, but it is for sure more than ever 💕

Believe me, I will write more about SATC in the future, reminiscing, reviewing it and every single aspect this lovely show reaches. 

-I might be late on my blog schedule, love and self care have taken their time to disrupt my life a little bit and make it way more fun and healthy than ever- 

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