Mexican Cherry

 Work does NOT define me

Perhaps it sounds a bit rude, but believe me, the fact that you now work for a company, organization or anything alike, does not change who you are, maybe there are some changes, which is normal, from the schedule to what your activities are, but the person you are before entering the job remains.  As my mother asked that, my heart fell. It could only feel a little bit of sadness for the fact that people expect that from you, that you become a bussiness woman once you enter the "ADULT WORLD". 

Did i change? Well, now I'm more tired and I have had a hard time adjusting to my schedule. After the gym I can barely open a book and focus on learning new theories or investigating, but that also happened when I entered college and changes were made because of my personal decisions, not the institution or the learning experience. 

A job should be an addition to your person, even if you love it and breathe for it, without it there should not be an empty girl, because with and without the job I am a full 100% human that has herself very clearly, and no job, payment, institution or meeting will ever change the fact that I can live without it, I can be anything I want and I do NOT need a job or a title to be myself. 

The question was perhaps directed to the growing child she still perceives, but at the same time it contains a lot of expectation from just doing another activity, working or not, I'm still awesome! Still myself, and the working girl concept, as magical an empowering it is, it also pressures a lifestyle that might not be as flexible as we think, pushing people out of their tracks expecting something out of them that doesn't necessarily has to be the "best".


So, if you're ever in a situation in which WORK seems the only defining aspect of your life, let that feeling go away with the wind or maybe you can even blow the feeling far far away too cause no matter what, do not let anyone define you over anything!


Until another time

Mexican Cherry 

If I manage to keep up, this will obviously have an effect in my life, besides preparing a better physical and mental state for me to embark in the job hunting issue, that will be postponed until further notice~ So, what's happening after prom?  ME....full dedication towards my body and mind only, in hopes of a better self that can handle this chaotic world in a better way. 

Until another time 

- Mexican Cherry - 

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We cannot wait any more time to be on the "right mood", "right time", because everything is happening except for ourselves, the world won't wait for anyone and it is now the only time to focus on. 

1 WATCH INSPIRATIONAL MATERIAL 

To me, sometimes inspiration or the mood to work has to be there for me to actually enjoy getting up and do my chores so, these are the go to movies, series and lately vloggers that help me get in the mood. 

Also, playing those on the background makes me focus and numbs the distracting thoughts and for these I play videos or series that I've watched before so there is no worry over missing parts or having to watch it for real. Just work or do any other activity along them. 

Another way is to play sounds in the background and for that this is my favorite app/website: COFFITIVITY!!!  You can chose sounds and they make you feel as if you were working on other places, without having to leave your desk or house at all. It is weird but believe me, they transport your mind to another place, ready to work! 

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Here there are, my 5 favorite ways to boost that inspiration and get me ready to WORK! 

This Worktober Mexican Cherry is on track! Willing to change and make it to the top, of course sharing the experience as it goes 

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From an earthquake that left me some post traumatic effect, having to change office due it and college madness that comes from dictators that call themselves teachers~ But what makes things hard everyday is not really an outside influence. I feel like now live is sleeping on a cutesy and spiraling outta control SLUMP!

1.-  Ok. I am not eating propperly. Not feeding my body, no no, NOT FUELING it! 

2.- Worrying over the biggest test/more important one ever in my college lifetime, but not doing a damn thing about it! 

3.- Watching every minimalism/style/make up/decluttering/early riser... PRODUCTIVITY videos but not applying shit to my own life. 

4.- I realize I'm LATE for everything! And bae was very clear telling me I could lose huge opportunities just for arriving late every single time plus, nobody likes that, not even I like it...but now it has become a habit that needs to stop! 

5.- Changing behaviour of work and productivity to stay - chill- 

Abandoning your aspirations, goals or routines just to please others can become really dangerous to yourself. If you're ever in the middle of that cycle, please stop. Seems like everyone wants us to be some kind of way, but c'mon there is nothing bad with being yourself. This hit me this weekend...why did I ever stop working until late night? Why did I stop perfectioning my work? Why did I kept on putting my own confort over way more important things? 

For example, dieting over 10 years ain't pretty. Let me tell you, it becomes a disastreous loop of dissapointment. Why? As far as I can tell and leaving aside ED thoughts and behaviours, there was never enough done, always leaving in the middle, when progress was not arriving as fast as wanted or when emotions hit hard and food was conforting. Tonight I tell my self... Babygirl it is time to STOP! 

Time to rise above everything and reach to my inner strength.  No pleasing others, time to fight for myself and don't let anyone shame me for who I am or how I do stuff. This time it is for me and I want my best! Change & progress won't be visible in one day, maybe two or maybe nobody will notice for weeks...months! 

So this is the plan: 

October is gonna be such a great month, I'm gonna own it, take it in my hands and get the badass girl that is in me right out for the world to know ~   

Today's inspirational moodboard came from the rainy morning that woke me up realizing I was gonna get wet on my commute, but also that my coffee would taste amazing!

Often I get to be inspired by nature and even though today's nature was a bit wild with pouring rain that wet my sneackers and part of my jeans, I must say it was beautiful. The scene of people waiting for public transport to get to work always makes me feel like we are in New York waiting for the subway & I don't know why but it truly makes my heart content and reminiscing over a place I've never been in. 

This thursday is a day to work and treat yourself at the same time, if you get the chance to work from home, cuddle under a warm cozy blanket and indulge over a yummy meal that brings warmth~ 

Cherry has been missing her partner in crime, her loved one who's currently enjoying the opposite of my inspiration scenario actually, but also taking this time to reflect on the future, wondering about the upcomming adventures that await her. She is also dieting real hard, which means sticking to the meal plan with no cheating at all, attending a daily workout with her personal trainer and also dancing her stress out with zumba at the gym, which sometimes makes her feel uncomfortable if not wearing the propper bra!

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(When it rains, the memories fall down) 

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This entry might be one that a lot can identify with, since it is about a process we all go through our entire life, yes loves, it is Change. 

When we are little, everyone places expectations for us, how we have to be as adults, our profession, lifestyle, even our sexuality is involved here! Every single aspect of life is ridiculously expected to be perfect, free of errors and always aspiring to become what our ancestors  couldn't. Somehow it shakes our little core, influencing decisions in our path. 

I will ommit the biological change for this text, later we'll be able to discuss such matters in a more detailed way, that and the adversities it has for us when it happens.  Ok to go on, our mind is always processing information, brain is one hardcore worker! To me the struggle that comes with change is the hardship of moving out of comfort, out of my coccoon in which I develop for a period of time, or maybe even the routine that enhances my productivity and happiness also. Could be anything I am happy with and believe me, everytime I get to a good point in life, where I don't even worry and smile everyday the issues arise, having me thinking of the past, mistakes, future and worries overall. 

It stops me from living my happy present 

Even though we are forced to change by growing up and social activities recquired with age, some of us really cry our heart out every stage of life. I remember being so afraid of entering college and damn, I'm graduating this year! It is unbeliavable to me, the actual fact still hasn't processed enough in my mind to accept that in a few months I'll be crossing another stage and will have to adapt to another and scarier one no matter what.


Avoiding reality 

To me, games were just a part of my day that caused fun, they give my brain a rest but also exercise some of the creativity, strategy and motor skills. It is all fun and games until you realize that you spend your day wishing for some time to play, which becomes a whole afternoon and then a daily routine.

Even though I don't judge games or people who play them, I notice that for me, they have become an escape from my changing reality, since I rather play Age of Empires than study or clean my living space. I realized the act of gaming became my comfort zone even though the majority of the time I lose in them, but it is incredible how building a virtual reality is so relaxing, numbs the mind and lets it breathe without worrying about anything real.

Until you wake up in the morning and there are no clean clothes, your bedroom is a mess and you haven't propperly fed yourself in a long time, or fed the brain some juicy information.


Recognition and Acceptation 

I am not doing anything for myself.

Repeat and actually recognize that even though it is lovely to build an entire civilization or watch other people reach their dreams, you have a body & mind of your own that needs nourishment, no one else can do it for you and no game will ever let you manage real life as easy as a ctrl clic will ever do.

It feels like crap, yes! Believe me, we all go through a moment in life that destroys the cloud of numbing we sometimes live in, nobody likes to hear they're failing to themselves. And by failing I mean not taking care or listening to the person you are, no interruptions and no comfort treats of any kind but a raw version of yourself.

Once we accept that we are not really working towards anything to take care of ourselves, then change can happen. This time, change that we can sort of manage and launch without being absorbed by an external change. To me it came represented in the way of decluttering, cleaning, dieting (learning how to eat) and exercising. I'm not perfect and all of these had setbacks, but I recognized my obstacles and got up to emend them. Gotta remember life is one, is today.

So, what next? 

Ok, we have discussed ups and downs, now what are we supposed to do? My honest advice and what I am following at the moment is to be true to yourself, listen to what you need (body & mind), don't give up, changes might be hard but it's happening either way, some of them are unavoidable and the best we can do is outgrow them.

Sometimes I wonder how all every girlboss lives, how they wake up early, plan ahead, workout, study, work, film videos, travel, learn, read, cook...qojdnuweybi!!!!! Everything seems magical if you simply search for bloggers on your social media. Somehow they have found the balance to actually achieve and get stuff done! Plus they're making money too!~ 

While sipping the cup of coffee of the day, a realization came in touch with the altercated mind and actually suggested to perform a 30 day challenge with a heavy schedule that promotes organization and productivity at their best! 

This will be the topic of the month, it will include several posts of the subjects mentioned above and even more, be prepared to explore a month or so of adventures that will force my body and mind to find an equilibrium working harder than ever! I am very happy to start this journey, but for now I declare the productivity month inaugurated and ready to go~~~~yaaaaay!!!  Stay tuned ;) 

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